So I seem to have found myself in a really messy situation in the past few days.
I have four really awesome friends who are all housemates. (I do not live with them) We will call one of them Mr. X. In the past few months I have developed a small crush on X but have repeatedly shot down the idea—in my head—of going further with the relationship due to his obvious difficulties with opening up to anyone especially females. His trust issues, previous failed relationships, as well as the current strained relationship with his housemates—partially the result of the way he treated another one of our mutual friends when he broke up with her–make me wonder about his ability to be in a relationship.
In the past few months I have been trying to figure out why I am attracted to him. I know I am sexually attracted to him, but I don’t think I am emotionally or romantically. I have entertained the thought of possibly dating him. (On a side note, I am a virgin and have decided to wait until I am in a steady and loving relationship before I have sex for the first time).
The other night I went to a party at their house and ashamedly got quite drunk—quite out of character for me. Mr X was also drunk and kept asking me to go into his room —obviously for sex. I told him that I would not have sex with him and left it at that. I ended up climbing into bed with him later that night and essentially passed out in his bed, looking rather desperate . (Thankfully nothing happened between us.)
The next morning we woke up and ended up spending hours lying in bed talking. He told me that he wanted to hang out more and that he likes me, although I’m really unsure if he really does; maybe he just wants FWB of a hook-up? Anyway, I was confused as he had never sent any signals that he liked me and is generally quite awkward around everyone even with his best friends. He told me that he wanted somebody there to touch, cuddle and talk to but that he feels awkward being that close to someone. I said that I was after the same thing, but that maybe it wasn’t the right time or that I wasn’t the right person to do this with. We both know that his housemates would not be happy if we were to start dating—or sleeping together—and we agreed to ‘see how it goes.’ He said that he is always going to be there if I wanted to ‘try’ with him. I am really worried that this could end badly, and I could ruin four fantastic friendships. I don’t know if I should go ahead with him or if it is a potentially toxic relationship and maybe he is just confused and wants a quick hookup.
Thank you for taking the time to read this rant, hopefully I can get another perspective that will help me come to a conclusion. (Pun intended.)
Thanks for your question.
It feels like you’re saying two different things here. A part of you is saying you want to wait to have sex until you’re in a committed relationship. But then you talk about being sexually attracted to this guy as you contemplate being with him. The other piece that’s confusing us is your response when he told you what he wanted. (He said he wants someone to touch and cuddle with. Basically someone to be physically intimate with which includes sex.) And then you said that’s what you wanted as well. We’re confused. What do you actually want Ellie? That’s the question you need to really figure out.
You may be sexually attracted to him but we don’t think he’s actually looking for a serious, committed relationship. You’ve pretty much said he has difficulty connecting to people, and that he’s awkward. So why do you think he’ll be any different with you? Did he talk about a relationship? Did he say he’s always liked you? If you indeed are seriously thinking about a relationship with this guy we think you should come right out and be more specific with how you’re feeling and what you want. Typically we’d say wait, but in this case, since it’s somewhat incestuous all being mutual friends, we think it’s best he know the scoop right up front. This also means he should understand how you feel about sex. (That you’ve been waiting to have sex until you’re in a committed relationship.) It will make him think much harder about what he wants; and it will give him more reason to do the “right thing.” If he freaks out or is non-committal then you’ll know how to proceed. If he’s receptive to your “confession” then you can “see how it goes.” We don’t think it will necessary turn toxic, but even if you just date it will make things awkward with all of your friends. You need to first figure out what you really want and then weigh your options.
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